1. affection to spare and dispose of
2. no statements about america
3. scheduled patheticism
4. misanthrope / metrophobia
5. misoscopist / monophobia
6. i cant remember anything i forgot to do.
7. tired of going out / i dont believe in you
8. "to get the wins we've gotten?" you mean "to get the wins we have?"
9. its not words. i have enough of those, thanks.
10.

had dinner at souzas for isaacs going away with a bunch of people. it was good... except they spilled wine all over me and my jacket.. (and Colins as well) which i have to get dry cleaned.. and the only thing they could offer me is a free drink... which obviously does me no good. grrr. i dislike the smell of alcohol. i couldnt even not tip because it was included. sometimes I wish it was still prohibition. is that drastic? ok, I take it back I dont wish that. im not complaining anymore. although I think it would be a little more fun if this was a dry country. at least for me. shhht. dont judge me.

we have a pool going for when isaac leaves chicago. closest date wins.

Stasia - March 6th
Colin (Soe's Colin) - Jan 7th
Jay - Feb 12th
Soe - June 3rd
TKS - March 18th
Carrie - March 5th
Me - Feb 23rd
AB - Feb 29th
V - May 17, 2009

want in? paypal $5.00 to steve@northofjanuary.com and include the date you want to buy. i will update the list.

so i guess tomorrow I will pack and do my laundry and clean my room after work. leaving for chicago with isaac thursday. staying until the 10th, driving to north hampton. playing the popfest on the 11th then driving home. not sure about internet connections.

been in a shitty mood lately and cant shake it. I need to get rid of that and figure out how to write again. maybe this trip will help.

i need to go to bed.

you have fire in your hair
you know what agent orange says:

now see the sun coming out
from behind the darkest clouds
say goodbye to the storm
as it moves across the sky
see the fire burning brighter
than it ever has before
move in close touch the flame
burn like fire in the rain

watch out. next time it rains.


PS. I was listening to grindcore today and thought of you.
PPS. as a reduction excersize :: make every group of things into one word. (i suppose that makes for less interesting reading. but whatever.)



groceries

i dont know why I got up at 9 am. it doesnt make much sense considering how late i was up last nite. so might as well do a picture post / clean out the camera.


bd, dz, and hc at the op


zombie walk


me in my halloween costume as the box ghost.

have a good sunday.

::

people dont care
too much about
intent,
motivation
or
dedication.

(why should they?)

she likes new american folk
and slow moving pictures
it drives me crazy.

::

i need to take a brake
i have no more creativity in my head
need to refresh.
need clear brain
so much to do...
tired

who wants to see the darjeeling limited with me tomorrow?
seriously.
txt msg me

i cant sing but i know what makes sound

the moon had a halo tonite
except the halo was really under the moon
so it was more like the moon
was shooting sun rays
down on the cloud
like a frat boy taking a
beer piss on a glass coffee table.

it was cold enough to see my breath on the way home
there was condensation in my wiry beard

i cant walk any faster / slower than
the tempo of my music or I will trip



i want to play guitar not make out

fucker

i am tired of reading
i am out of water
i am hot

my eyes are burning
interpol is quiet
when I am 40 and my beard is gray I wont play acoustic guitar and sing in front of people.

hot dogs.

my brain is a mess of huss n fuss.

constants:
this thing
other things

details. bah.

breakfast
worked on record
french fry eating contest

ipw v. ab. winner = ab. total consumed: 8 large and 1 small.
walk downtown - no success in finding dinner buddy -
walked home
made dinner
worked on book

all the windows are open
its windy
i like wool blankets.

1. got up
2. worked
3. ate dinner
4. cut my hair
5. worked on the book
6. watched a movie
7. walked in the rain (splashed once)
8. recorded
9. walked in the rain (not splashed)
10. updating
11. you are 11 tonite. I had too much to do. or nothing to do.

brain empty
etc.

little.

recorded all nite.
brain empty
call me.
bye.

oh i have a song for your comp. do you own a record label and need a song for your comp? let me know you can have it.

this afternoon,
since i have to record 3-4 more mfdoj songs because the EP is now to be a record
and i am working on the magogs record
and the draws record
and have to finish the new book by middle of next month
i decided I needed a new desk for my drum machine
which is a computer running through a mixer through outboard effects
so i designed one, and built it after work
total build time - 3.5 hours.
its not finished because i didnt have the materials to build all the racks and the drawers but I got it as far as I wanted to and it will be totally functional until I can finish it after the new year.

i am tired.
and I have to get a lot of things out of my head on to paper / into pro-tools

see you in 2008.

I spend too much time by myself wandering around.
death is really getting to me.
i'm tired of being in my own head
want to lend me yours for a day?

these are pictures i took today:

eat pussy jack off!!!!!!!!

enemy panic sinner

revolt

gowhileucan

horny nudist more paths north

dear john, whats a girl gotta do? -caity

dear danielle, i love you so much i will write your name on a rock in the middle of no where in 2 colors of spray paint while drinking budweiser and if you ever come out here and find it you will totally love me more.

i am the happiest rock you will ever meet.

matt reads playgirl, what a fagit

this experiment is on a slab of concreate

yes, you cant tell? fuck, i really am bad at this.

no war

sunset on my way home from the longest walk ever... with that cruise boat

colin clary

colin and i played at red square for the burlington craft mafias traveling trunk show.

then hung out a bunch of places, grabbed food at nectars then went to see anders parker:


he was awesome.

*poke*
sweet
thanks

1. the economy of, and based around, the poor, hungry, and unemployed.
2. i saw a guy try to light his zippo 6 times by snapping his fingers. then he flicked it closed with his wrist.
3. mission: pie = success.
4. split and shop. men in one store women in another.
5. kicking apples down the sidewalk.
6 - 10. you can have them all tonite. you deserve them.

a few things:

the young procreators
are not keeping up with
the old. not even close.
no balance.

heaven and hell are:
memories and
influence from interaction

that is my bible.

i've been thinking
(stupid brain)
and all this
(feeling of shit)
is the result of
absence of memory and influence
not only personal
but proof of
community.

its unsettling.

also:

things that are not appropriate.

really this has been a 6ish year log of
things that are missing
there is a lot that is here.

i have a lot of weird little relationships with people.
my friends have always known me better than my family.


do you have a tornado in pocket?
if you do its awful selfish
of you not to share.
it with me.

dangling out yr window
see me walk by
what does this mean
wireless internet
porches doors and stairs
wood floors

i am not sleeping
ever

white lines.

saw marie claire play tonite.

went to tiny thai, saw lets whisper and snmnm. good show.

I dont like you,
but I want you to keep trying anyway,
why do you keep trying?
i told you nothing would work out,
I love you!

i think i might disappear
for a while
you know
because
of waning interest.

i listened to some hardcore kids
at the grocery store
they said the same things
hardcore kids always
say and bought milk.

dark and streetlights
blurring my brain vision tonite
trying to recall things about
breath, bows, blues
and bones
under blankets

really i enjoy the opportunity to think
--- see i have this space reserved
--- and i like it to be full
--- thanks for that (whether you know it or not)

watched a documentary on townes van zandt. watched the sox game. worked on the book. think i finally finished the mix on the last song for the ep. depends on what the label guy says though.

my head is tired.

"i figure it was heaven purgatory hell then the blues"

-townes

did some stuff and some things, worked on some stuff sameold sameold


V + ME


mmmmm sounds delish.

didnt go to applefest because of the THUNDERSTORMS

maybe i will go tomorrow.

nite.

went to dinner for hollys birthday at flatbread, got an apple cider, ran into some people on church street, watched barbacoa for a while, ran into some more people on church street, went to see the jazz guys and lendway, saw some more people.

i have been trying to work on my memory lately by forcing my self to remember things. i have the worst memory ever and usually most stuff i try to remember isnt important so i just let it pass.

things i was trying to remember:

one thing had something to do with: "going home with a guy in a band isn't a feat. he's probably the easiest, biggest dirt bag in the place"

the other one had to do with a girl at borders in the sci-fi section talking with three guys about a role playing game. in it her character was a hermaphroditic half elf ranger. she was very serious about this.

the last had to do with cracking backs.

i think those were all the things I had to remember. good job steve, thanks.

good nite.

recorded

a girl with a face like prison bread

1. since everything is connected...
2. we might as well stand next to each other
3. nothing is stopping your freedom
4. IM common communication
5. why is 'easy' so hard to understand?
6. goofing off
7. FUCKING FALL WHAT THE FUCK SRSLY!
8. sleeping on couches
9. helpful statements
10.

5/23/07 9:33 pm

practiced
cleaned
wrote a letter to unicel telling them I wasnt happy with them selling to verizon because verizon is the devil. (got a response)
wrote a letter to vpr thanking them for the format change during the day. (no response)
helped jessie move some boxes

i need to figure out how to not like sugar.

i keep writing these long detailed posts in my head during the day and by the time i sit down to write them they are gone.

hmmm.... i guess that leaves us with nothing.